Thinking About You

I’m really sorry, I don’t want to be mad.I was trying so hard to not be mad, to not care about you, I just always looked up to you. I always thought you were going to be the perfect person, and so I put my faith that you would be. And like in the real word, proof can kill faith. You have proven that I should have never trusted you the way I did. I just want to forget you, how you’ve made me feel, sometimes it seems there are more tears than laughter.   I’m sorry, I don’t want to be mad.I don’t want you anymore, I just want to for once forgive and forget, I just never seem to forget, and when I do, you just hurt me again.  I just don’t want to be mad, I want to forgive and forget so I can finally feel like we’re friends again. And that’s the thing, you’re just that perfect friend who would never hurt anybody, so when I’m mad at you half of the time I think you deserve it, the other half I’m hating myself for being mad at you because I know that’s not who you are and I’m just blowing it out of proportion. Other times it’s just hard to think that I spend all this time thinking about you, what I’ve done to you, why you act this way around me, knowing that you never think about me.